What came first? Smiles, then long course or LONG course, then SMILES?
When I heard about long course, I was excited...probably feeling like this picture!
I thought, 50 meters compared to 25 yards? It can't be that bad? Right? Um....
Well it was a bit harder and LONGER than I had imagined. Plus...probably wasn't the best idea to move into the FAST lane on the first day of long course? Yah, not my best decision. Plus I had done a Open Water Swim the day before. I swam 1.1 miles in 30 minutes...which I thought was good! But I was tired and feeling it the next day, which happened to fall on the first day of LONG COURSE!
What I love...You get into a groove and can really focus on your skill without stoping!
What I didn't love..being with all the fasties and NOT having my confindence in-check. It was out of my comfort zone, which I HAVE to get used too. I know it's good for me and I have to push myself. If my coach didn't think I could do it, she would never have put me in that lane. I hate when the very thing you LOVE can be the very thing you question? I know that's just part of the journey, but I question my abilities when I feel weak or lacking in those abilities. I'm sure thats normal.
I should probably do in the pool what I did on my long runs and FOCUS on a word that will help instead of letting my mind take me to places that do NO good. Swimming is my strongest sport, by far! I just need to keep working and contniue to improve. I also need to learn not to compare myself to others. A lot of Swimmers on the Masters Team have swam competitvelly in High School and College...I did neither.
I just grew up on a lake, did swim team and happen to LOVE swimming.
*What do you do when you feel less than? Doubting your abilities? Mental games?
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